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Hospital visit and a girlie shopping day!

Today started out on a bit of a low but ended on a high. This morning my step dad and I, set out rather early to battle the snow, to get me to a hospital appointment in Chelmsford, Essex. The drive normally takes an hour from Tring (Hertfordshire) but due to snowy conditions took a lot longer than expected and at times we were doubtful we would make it there on time. Thankfully we arrived at the hospital 20 minutes early so had time for a quick coffee before going into see my consultant.

I was getting the results back from some procedures I had recently had (2 different types of Endoscopy’s) , in relation to difficulties I have had for some time with vomiting  regurgitation and acid reflux. It turns out I have a condition called Rumination syndrome. For many years this condition  was thought to be a psychogenic condition that only affect infants and mentally disabled people. However, more recently it has been discovered that it can affect healthy infants, adolescents and adults as well, and in the majority of cases is not psychogenic… yet they still have not found out what causes this. It is poorly understood and is often unheard of by the medical profession, patients and public. Unfortunately there are no pills or surgery to cure the condition  My consultant also believes that I have Dystonia affecting my Oesophagus and thinks that this aggravates the Rumination Syndrome. However, the Rumination Syndrome, does not really bother me at the moment, so I am not to fussed about it. I know that by the time I wake up tomorrow I will most likely have forgotten all about it. That may sound silly but I do not see the point in concentrating on the negatives in life.

On a more positive note however, whilst I was in Chelmsford today, I went and met up with one of my close uni friends, and had a fabulous girlie day out shopping! I tried to push myself around the shops, however my arm was not at its best and after sending a number of objects flying in New Look, we deemed it sensible for Emma to spend the rest of the day pushing me around. The poor girl.

I had such a fantastic time. Not only did I get to have a good catch up with her but I also felt like a normal everyday young adult! I did not have my parents with me, which gave me more independence, and I felt like I was on top of the world. The day went perfectly minus one or two spasms. It gave me so much confidence.

I was rather sad to leave Chelmsford, as when I was at uni there, I completely loved the city, and could not imagine ever moving away from it. The last time I was there was the day I moved out of the uni accommodation in July last year, after Dystonia put a stop to my Midwifery training.

However I refuse to focus on the negative. I am concentrating on how much of an amazing day it was and it was so good to see my friend. I am completely exhausted from it, so I am going to bed early tonight. I have a great week planned, a friend is coming to see me on Wednesday, I am going riding on Thursday, another uni friend is coming to see me on Friday, my boyfriend is coming round on Saturday and my grandparents are coming over on Sunday! It is going to be a good week.

My big 4.

This morning I was feeling pretty down. All I could think was why me? After everything I have already gone through in my life, how was this fair? After feeling depressed for a few hours I started to think about the way I was looking at my life. At that moment in time I was looking at it all wrong. I was allowing my Dystonia to get on top of me, and I was looking at life from the wrong the point of view.

Instead of filling my head with negative thoughts, I started to focus on the positives. These are my 4 big positives.

1) If I didn’t have Dystonia then I wouldn’t have raised over £700 for the Dystonia society, a charity that provides fantastic support for sufferers.

2) Through this, I have brought awareness of Dystonia, to not only members of the public but also to members of the medical society who had not heard of Dystonia or seen a Dystonia patient before.

3) If I did not have dystonia, then I would not have had created this blog. This blog has not only raised awareness but has also put me in contact with some amazing people!

4) Dystonia has given me strength! The strength to go out in public in my wheelchair and not care what people think. The strength to stand up to the medical society. The strength to speak out and raise awareness! The strength to carry on fighting even when things are looking bleak. The strength and the determination to show the world what I can do. The strength to keep on believing that one day there will be a cure.

 

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